Smut4Smut Exchange 2023 Creator Letter
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withthekeyiskingHello, I'm Q! This is my Creator Letter for the 2023 Smut4Smut Exchange. First, thank you for your interest! Whether you're my assigned giftor or thinking of making a treat, I appreciate you so very much :)
This letter has my general DNWs and Likes, and then I have individual sections for each of my fandom requests for this year's exchange (and I don't have a preference between any of them, so don't think if one's section is longer than the other that I want it more!). I hope my provided details will give you some inspiration! I really look forward to whatever y'all create, I know I'm gonna love it <3
GUIDE
DNWs
GENERAL LIKES
DARK LIKES
I'm a huge fan of darkfic, whether that's serious Dead Dove: Do Not Eat or whump or simple hurt/comfort (with a healthy dose of hurt XD). This can mean physical, mental, or sexual (absolutely a fan of noncon!). I also really enjoy the aftermath of these events, having characters deal with what's happened to them. Some more great things are:
SMUT LIKES
These really are non-exhaustive, as I’m down for basically everything other than scat! These also can be used with any level of consent (including the complete lack thereof XD) and make me super happy.
ALTERNTE UNIVERSE LIKES
I can get behind just about every AU, but my favorites are:
General AUs
SUPERNATURAL
Supernatural is probably my longest lasting fav fandom—I'm just so in love with these boys and the entire universe, like I don't care if it seems 'cringy' it makes me emotional. This is a show about family and trying your hardest and always fighting, always striving for the right thing even if it's next to impossible. I love the heart, they way Sam & Dean practically bleed a need to save people, no matter how many times it fucks them over. No matter how much pain it brings them (and, often, the people in their lives as well). Because there just was never another option for them, even if they both gave noping out their best shot at times lol. Idk guys, I will just Always be a Supernatural fan, no matter how much time passes.
Of the two, my fav is definitely Sam. I could scream over this poor boy's journey, and I am Feral over his plotlines. Like, I will genuinely never stop being obsessed with the demon blood and Boy King and Lucifer Vessel stuff just NEVER. Sam is such an awesome character, especially early seasons Sam, 1-5 particularly. (Before the writers started to slowly separate Dean and Sam out into the Action Brother and the Smart Brother instead of them both being a good mix of those characteristics!!) I love how kind he is, how he has the ability to connect with everyone he meets, but also how ruthless he is. I mean, cutting off Gordon's head with barbed wire??? So cool! Sam is brilliant and funny, and filled with so much trauma that it almost boggles the mind. I love his self-worth issues, and his trust issues, and his daddy issues, and basically ever damn issue he has. I love his utterly fucked up childhood and his guilt over things that have nothing to do with him. And I love, as I mentioned before, his fucky plotlines!!
Lucifer/Sam Winchester, Lucifer/Nick/Sam Winchester, Nick/Sam Winchester
The MVP of villains goes to Lucifer and his excellently fucked up bond with Sam! I especially love season 5 Lucifer characterization when it comes to his dynamic with Sam (the twisted care he showed, the way he was so condescending but still believed he was giving Sam what he needed, how good Sam felt when possessed even if he hated it) but later seasons Lucifer is definitely a bucket of fun too! His cruelty and enjoyment of Sam's pain was super delicious, just that possessive sadism that was so delightful—he Constantly wanted to do such terrible things to Sam and I support it. Two very different vibes of Lucifer, and both of them Excellent.
And god if the entire Nick arc in season 14 didn't give me sooooo many ideas. That dude was thoroughly fucked in the head, and I didn't get nearly enough interactions between him and Sam. How determined Sam was to help him despite how hard it was for Sam to look at him, and the actual betrayal Sam felt when Nick went dark. There was just so much damn potential there for Nick to do some fucked up shit, and I would eat up so many fics of him being able to do just that!
Azazel/Sam Winchester
Azazel was so delightfully messed up. All his quips, his smiles, his fucked up paternal actions towards Sam...Love it all. Like him saying "I'll be there in a minute, Champ! But I'm proud of you; knew you had it in you." Just love that entire vibe. He felt like it was fact that Sam was his boy, and was absolutely his favorite. Man had big plans! I'm so curious about AUs involving Azazel, like what if he actually raised Sam, or didn't die in the s2 finale, or Sam's powers developed earlier, or that scene with Azazel possessing John went differently...like I just fucking love this dude and want so much more of him.
Gadreel/Sam Winchester
These two had very few scenes between them, but the Everything Else About Them more than made up for it! I mean, come on--Sam's lack of bodily autonomy once more biting him in the ass in such a deeply violating way, having an evil angel actually riding shotgun for months without him knowing about it. Thinking he was going crazy, thinking there was something deeply wrong with him...I almost feel bad about how much I enjoyed my boy's pain 😆 With how righteous and nearly smug Gadreel acted about his actions after the fact, like he totally believed he was in the right, would've easily translated to having some more fucked up shit happening, whether that be him using Sam's possessed body for Bad Stuff or a fic after the fact between them.
Reggie Hull/Tim Janklow/Sam Winchester
If you aren't obsessed with 5x03 Free to Be You and Me then you clearly haven't watched it enough and need to go do that Immediately. Sam having hunters come after him and try to force him to drink demon blood in order to be their weapon against demons is just SO SPECTACULAR I cannot even. Like Sam is so panicked when he realizes what they're planning, and Tim and Reggie so uncaring of it. They see a monster they can use and nothing more, and I think they would've used Sam over and over again without any lick of remorse, if they'd managed to get him to drink the blood. And with Sam's addiction playing a role, well, Sam really wouldn't be in for a good time, that's for sure. (Hell, even without getting him to drink the blood, I'm sure they'd have some ideas of what to do to him...)
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THE MAGICIANS
I fell hard and fast into this fandom, like goddamn. I binged it last year and became instantly obsessed, immediately heading to AO3 to soak in all the fan content for it like a sponge. My brain is full of so much love for this show and the world they created and all the amazing characters I just ACK everyone should watch this show, I cannot recommend it highly enough. It's currently on Netflix so go binge and join me in obsession!
Honestly the characters in this show are to die for. Quentin just sparks so much joy for me, and fascinates me to no end. Like, he's the protagonist of the show, but he isn't the "chosen one", you know? Penny's the rare Traveler, Alice is the ultra powerful one, Julia is the goddess, Eliot is the High King...all of them have something super spectacular going for them, and then there's Quentin, with so much heart and passion and intelligence and just a deep love of (and belief in, as Margo says) magic. He is damaged and so not ok, a broken boy trying his best, always seeking more, wanting more and doing everything in his power to go after it. I love his fire and his dedication and his oh-so-relatable desire to be important in a world where it's so easy to be ordinary. I love his deep bonds with the people around him, how those never faded, and I appreciated so much how often he was mentioned in season 5 despite not being there. And I miss the little volunteer tomato so much 😭
Quentin Coldwater/The Monster, Quentin Coldwater/The Monster/Eliot Waugh
It took me basically .5 seconds to become obsessed with the Monster plotline. I'm always such a fan of possession stuff, and when you mix that with villain-has-an-obsession-with-the-hero, I am absolutely sold. The Monster's fixation on Quentin was so fascinating and fun to watch, the razor-wire line Quentin had to watch, and I can never get enough of them. That scene where the Monster encourages Quentin to break the planes, and Quentin starts to get really into it...lives fucking rent free in my head, my dudes. Rent free.
(I'm also down with some Queliot being thrown in the mix if you enjoy that ship! I didn't tag it because I didn't want to get solely that as the dynamics with the villains is where my id lies, but I still enjoy that ship and the Monster plotline especially gave so much excellent fodder for Queliot so I'd welcome its inclusion if you like it!)
Martin Chatwin/Quentin Coldwater
Everything with the Beast and the timeloop was super cool! I loved Martin's entire vibe, how psycho and glib he was, and the connection he had to Quentin because of the loops and Q's inability to sit things out is such a unique one. Like, a bond between a villain and a hero not because the hero is the "chosen one", but because the hero just refused to be on the sidelines no matter what—I just really love that. And Martin might've looked down on Quentin, but he also looked for him, too (like the way he said "There you are" in that "first" meeting), which is tasty as all hell.
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MARVEL 616
Ben Reilly, my dear darling blorbo. I hold him gently in my hands, I protect him from harm, I wreck him and tear him apart (you know, like you do with your favs 😌). Ben is just such a cool and damaged as hell person. He is filled with identity issues and insecurity and an almost desperate need to belong, to be a hero, to be in a position to save people. He has genius-level intelligence (being a clone of Peter Parker kind of ensures that) but his emotional state is often so unstable that that genius gets used for so many others' purposes. I love his back and forth relationships with Peter and Kaine, his fucked up bond with Miles Warren, and god honestly all the relationships he has with folks are so fun.
Ben is someone who has died more than anyone in the Marvel universe (literally—Death herself told him!) and none of those deaths were pleasant. Hell, 28 of them were him being literally tortured to death by his creator! Something I really love is that when Ben has his run as a villain in The Clone Conspiracy, his reasoning behind what he's doing is his intense terror about death; he did a lot of fucked up shit in TCC, but his reasoning was the desire to be able to stop death, to never let anyone else go through what he went through, and I just think that's Neat.
Everyone who's ever been in a position of power over Ben has abused it. Ben is someone who has clawed his way back to being a hero again and again and again every time the world fucks him over, every time he puts his trust in the wrong person and finds himself getting burned once more. Honestly it's almost like Marvel has a personal grudge against him for the sheer number of times they build him up only to knock him back down 😂 I'm laughing to hide the fact that I'm sobbing inside.
I'm sorry for the lack of pairing-specific shit here but it's because literally anything with this boy will bring me joy if you decide to write him. Literally anything <3
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THE NIGHT MANAGER
Do yourself a favor if you haven't already seen this show, and go watch it. It's on Amazon Prime, Apple TV, and Vudu, along with a couple other places to buy it, and is only 6 episodes. It is the best 6 hours you can spend, because when I tell you this show is genius, I mean it. The acting is off the charts, the characters are compelling, and the story is interesting as fuck. Who doesn't want to watch Tom Hiddleston and Hugh Laurie go head to head? No one, and if you haven't seen it, you're missing out. I have rewatched it like 5 times.
The thing that really makes the series is the dynamic between Jonathan and Roper, which is sheer perfection. I was already predisposed to like it since I like both actors, but still my breath was taken away by it. By the levels and the secrecy and betrayal and genuine affection and respect buried amongst it all. Jonathan is with Roper to avenge someone he loved, but still he found himself for falling for Roper's charms, at least a little bit. He might've hated himself for it, but it went both ways!! Roper saying "It's a rare thing, Jonathan Pine, for me to trust a person. But you were special. Knew it the first time I saw you" ripped my heart out because of how much he means it. Roper doesn't trust people, but Jonathan slid right in like he was a missing puzzle piece finally returning. Roper wanted to give everything to Jonathan, wanted him to be a goddamn emperor of Rome with him, even gave Jonathan a chance to join him for real when he knew Jonathan was betraying him!!
And nothing, nothing, will ever compare to the moment when Jonathan blew all of Roper's shit up, thoroughly destroying his empire and costing him billions of dollars, and Roper looked at him and smiled and said "Oh, you beauty." I'm sorry but, like, how can anyone stay sane after seeing that??? Jonathan destroyed everything and Roper just thought he was spectacular!!!! Even winks at him later when they're taking him away!!
If you've come for coherent thoughts about how much I enjoy the show (how brilliant and subtle the plot is, how fascinating and damaged Jonathan is, how interesting Roper's empire and his inner circle are) I'm sorry but you won't get details from me, I'm incapable of talking about anything without devolving into freaking the fuck out over the bond between Roper and Jonathan. So you'll just have to watch the show for yourself to learn how wonderful everything else is 😌
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THE FOLLOWING
What is it about the dynamic between a violent criminal and the person hunting them that has me in a chokehold? No idea, but this show gives me that in spades and I thank them for it! Holy fuck is this show a good time—so eerie, so fucked up, so well acted. I love the way they slow reveal the history between the characters and the way it impacts the now, and shit they just portray obsession so damn well. All of the characters have it, good and bad—obviously Joe's followers are obsessed with him, and Joe with Ryan, but Ryan's equally obsessed, and Mike & all the rest become that way too. They're all such complicated, fun characters and I love this show to pieces.
Joe Carroll/Ryan Hardy
This relationship! Is! Everything! These two have such gigantic divorced energy from the very first moment, which is wild to see portrayed while they're sitting across from each other in an interrogation cell 😂 As I said before these two are o b s e s s e d with each other, even if Ryan likes to pretend he's not as invested as Joe is. Watching their relationship develop over the course of the show from bitterness and self-loathing to severe attachment (and self-loathing lol) was fantastic. Ryan spending all of season 2 hunting Joe down despite everyone calling him crazy, and then oh my god can I even talk about season 3 without losing my shit? The fucked up bond between them reaches insane, amazing new heights. Ryan dreaming about them playing pool and Joe holding him and teaching him to kill I JUST CANNOT HANDLE THIS RATIONALLY. Then because apparently they didn't destroy me enough, they had to have Ryan hallucinating Joe and that is just...fuck am I ever obsessed.
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BOURNE MOVIES
I love this movie so fucking much and it is wild to me that I've only just now started requesting it for exchanges! The entire universe is awesome but I didn't click with the original trilogy in the same way I clicked with this sequel film. It is just the coolest fucking thing. Like, getting an outsider POV on the Bourne trilogy was awesome, and then you throw in the wonderful lead character of Aaron Cross and you've absolutely got me hooked.
Spies! Double crosses! Enhanced people! Manipulation! This film has it all, and all my love is attached to Aaron. This man has been manipulated and used at every single turn (by his army recruiter, by the people in charge of Outcome, by Eric Byer) because of his mental deficiency, and that's *chef's kiss* and so painful. Aaron-as-Kenny was desperate to belong, to be safe, and that was twisted and abused until he was a loyal killing machine. But the extra interesting thing to me is that Aaron still asked so many questions! He was constantly arguing—with other agents, with the doctors, with everyone. Only person he didn't argue with was Eric (but that scene we see between them really is very emotionally charged...).
Anyway, this fandom has so few fanworks, even fewer that are solely about this fandom instead of a crossover (so many crossovers with other Jeremy Renner characters, lol). I'm dying for content! I want my boy Aaron so badly, in whatever form I can take him. All the better if it's to do with his bond with Eric Byer, and all those delicious power dynamics XD
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GRISHA TRILOGY
Leigh Bardugo deserves all the praise for created such a unique and awesome world. I love how real it feels, even alongside all the magic and insane shit. Like, you can picture the geography and hear the languages and understand the command structure and all of it is so lived in, you know? It feels like Bardugo knows every single detail of the place like it's just fact, and I find that wildly impressive. (A small note that I really love the use of the Ravkan language in the books, so you get extra points for any inclusion of that!)
In the series, my main man is definitely Nikolai. I am So Here for the charming swashbuckler hiding a sharp, serious mind, the general who locks his emotions away to do his job but still cares so deeply for everyone around him. He takes so much on his shoulders readily, facing each and every challenge that comes his way with a brazen grin and ready plan and a refusal to let anyone see him sweat. Which isn't to say he doesn't sweat; for all his confidence, the boy for sure has a well of issues, and never has the time or the space to really explore them. I love his dedication to his people, his practical standpoint on matters of state (even if it goes against what he may personally want). I love how he describes himself as "a solider for whom the war would never be over" and "a bastard left alone in the woods." His position has him so isolated, and there's nothing he can do about it, no matter how badly he wishes he could.
The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova/Nikolai Lantsov
God I really wish we'd gotten to see more of Nikolai with the Darkling. There is just so much untapped potential here, and so much fucked up shit that it can't be anything but exciting. Like, it's canon that Nikolai and Aleksander knew each other before Nikolai left Ravka, so my question is how well did they know each other? What were Aleksander's thoughts on the second prince, the maybe-bastard? Did anything fucky ever happen between them? Did Aleksander ever try to manipulate him as an attempt to get an extra advantage over the royal family? And that's not even getting into the stuff between them during canon! Like, god, you could've cut the murderous, plotting tension with a knife. And Aleksander corrupting Nikolai??? Goddamn. Anything for these two would bring me a lot of joy!
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DCU COMICS
Dick Grayson is probably my biggest/longest lasting hyperfixation, hence why he gets two requests so I could use many many freeforms 😆 I don't really have much to say about this, I just want bad things to happen to Dick Grayson, whether at the hands of his enemies or his allies. Go ham, live your best life. I love all these tags split between my two requests, they'd all be such an absolute blast to see come to life. Get as angsty or whumpy or fucked up as you like!
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I want to thank you for reading my Letter, and I hope you have a good time writing! I'm so looking forward to whatever you lovely folks come up with :) <3
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This letter has my general DNWs and Likes, and then I have individual sections for each of my fandom requests for this year's exchange (and I don't have a preference between any of them, so don't think if one's section is longer than the other that I want it more!). I hope my provided details will give you some inspiration! I really look forward to whatever y'all create, I know I'm gonna love it <3
GUIDE
- DNWs
- General Likes
- Dark Likes
- Smut Likes
- Alternate Universe Likes
- Supernatural (TV)
- The Magicians (TV)
- Marvel 616
- The Night Manager (TV)
- The Following (TV)
- Bourne (Movies)
- The Grisha Trilogy - Leigh Bardugo
- DCU (Comics)
DNWs
- Genderbends (but trans welcome!)
- Scat
- Crackfic or Pure Fluff
- Reader Insert
- First Person POV
GENERAL LIKES
- Angst and Hurt/Comfort of all kinds
- Universe Travel
- Time Travel/Loop
- Role/Age Reversal
- Rescue Missions
- Second Person POV (can be fun as long as it's not readerfic!)
- Trauma Recovery
- Rare Pairings
- Enemies to Lovers
- Trust Issues
- Power Dynamics & Imbalance
- Identity Porn
- Soulmates
- Amnesia & Memory Alteration
- Possessiveness
- Fix-Its
- Missing Scenes
- Trapped Together
- Undercover
- Found Family & Deep Bonds Between Characters
- Fake/Pretend Relationship
- Pre- and Post-Canon
- Alternate Universes (favorites listed below!)
- Outsider POV
- All Kinds of Endings
DARK LIKES
I'm a huge fan of darkfic, whether that's serious Dead Dove: Do Not Eat or whump or simple hurt/comfort (with a healthy dose of hurt XD). This can mean physical, mental, or sexual (absolutely a fan of noncon!). I also really enjoy the aftermath of these events, having characters deal with what's happened to them. Some more great things are:
- Manipulation (emotional, mental, etc.)
- Mind Control & Demon Possession & Hypnosis
- Codependency
- Trauma Exploration
- Gaslighting
- Brainwashing/Conditioning
- Worse-Its
- Kidnapping & Captivity
- War Prize
- Forced Pregnancy
- Droit Du Seigneur/The Lord’s Right
- Betrayal
- Sensory Deprivation
- Stockholm & Lima Syndrome
- Drugged Sex
- Auction
- Forced Consent
- Fuck or Die
- Seriously touch-starved characters
- Ignored Safeword
- Torture
- "Take me instead" situations
- Abuse
- Earn Your Keep
- and just about everything 😆
SMUT LIKES
These really are non-exhaustive, as I’m down for basically everything other than scat! These also can be used with any level of consent (including the complete lack thereof XD) and make me super happy.
- Weapon Play - Gunplay is definitely top of the list, but I love all kinds! If you can think it I guarantee I’ll like it
- Bondage - The regular kind for sure, along with Predicament Bondage and Honor Bondage
- Messy Blowjobs, Face-Fucking, Deepthroating, Face-Sitting
- Boot Worship - One character licking another’s shoes or kissing them....great great shit
- Fingers in Mouth. Tbh anything in mouth; oral fixation FTW! This includes Gags for sure
- Humiliation, Degradation, Objectification, Begging
- Biting - Neck, thighs, everywhere is good. Love bruises being left behind
- Breathplay/Choking - Whether by hand or belt or suffocation or whatever you like, it’s all damn good
- Overstimulation, Multiple Orgasms, Forced Orgasms, Orgasm Delay/Denial
- Manhandling/Strength Kink, Size Kink - It’s great when one partner is much larger/stronger than the other, and can really manhandle them around. Also great when one has a big dick and the other is loving it. Love one character being held down during sex or grabbed roughly
- Praise Kink, Loyalty Kink, Competence Kink
- Impact Play - Spanking, Belting, Whipping, Etc.
- Desk Sex, Wall Sex, Car Sex, Semi-Public Sex
- Non-Penetrative Sex - Thigh Fucking, Asscheek Fucking, Breast Fucking
- Glove Kink - Being fingered with gloves on, sucking on gloved fingers, descriptions of the gloves on skin, etc.
- Cock Warming, Glory Hole
- Womb/Cervix Fucking (yea I know, physically impossible, idgaf it's sexy)
- Somnophilia
- Tentacle Porn (both by creature and by plant), Oviposition, Bestiality (both monster & regular animals)
- Creampie - Love when one character fills another up, especially if the feeling of it leaking out afterwards is included
- Forced Feminization - A male character being put in lingerie or skirts or panties; being called things like “babygirl”; having their genitals referred to with a feminine slant (such as their asshole being called a pussy/boypussy, their cock being call a girlcock, their pecs called tits, etc.)
- Breeding Kink - Whether being bred is actually possible or not, I love one character really kinking on the idea, especially if they’re not on the receiving end
- Object Insertion/Regular Items Used in Sexual Ways - Ties used for bondage, something normal filling the role of a buttplug, etc.
- Sex Pollen & Heat/Rut Inducers - Whether only one party is drugged or both are
- Watersports, Omorashi
- Rape Roleplay - Both violent and gentle
ALTERNTE UNIVERSE LIKES
I can get behind just about every AU, but my favorites are:
General AUs
- Royalty
- Pirate
- Criminal (mafia, assassin, thief, etc.)
- Angel/Demon
- Genetic Dom/Sub
- Bodyguard
- Bounty Hunter
- Dystopian
- Creature (fae, vampires, etc.)
- Teacher/Student
- Western
- Omegaverse
- High School/College
- Fantasy
- Law Enforcement/Military
- Prison
- Single Parent
- Star Wars
- Hogwarts/Wizarding World
- Bender (ATLA)
- Pacific Rim
- Inception
- Supernatural (TV show)
- The Magicians
- Hunger Games
- Percy Jackson
- Star Trek (including Mirrorverse!)
- Pushing Daisies
- Tron
- X-Men/Mutant
SUPERNATURAL
Supernatural is probably my longest lasting fav fandom—I'm just so in love with these boys and the entire universe, like I don't care if it seems 'cringy' it makes me emotional. This is a show about family and trying your hardest and always fighting, always striving for the right thing even if it's next to impossible. I love the heart, they way Sam & Dean practically bleed a need to save people, no matter how many times it fucks them over. No matter how much pain it brings them (and, often, the people in their lives as well). Because there just was never another option for them, even if they both gave noping out their best shot at times lol. Idk guys, I will just Always be a Supernatural fan, no matter how much time passes.
Of the two, my fav is definitely Sam. I could scream over this poor boy's journey, and I am Feral over his plotlines. Like, I will genuinely never stop being obsessed with the demon blood and Boy King and Lucifer Vessel stuff just NEVER. Sam is such an awesome character, especially early seasons Sam, 1-5 particularly. (Before the writers started to slowly separate Dean and Sam out into the Action Brother and the Smart Brother instead of them both being a good mix of those characteristics!!) I love how kind he is, how he has the ability to connect with everyone he meets, but also how ruthless he is. I mean, cutting off Gordon's head with barbed wire??? So cool! Sam is brilliant and funny, and filled with so much trauma that it almost boggles the mind. I love his self-worth issues, and his trust issues, and his daddy issues, and basically ever damn issue he has. I love his utterly fucked up childhood and his guilt over things that have nothing to do with him. And I love, as I mentioned before, his fucky plotlines!!
Lucifer/Sam Winchester, Lucifer/Nick/Sam Winchester, Nick/Sam Winchester
The MVP of villains goes to Lucifer and his excellently fucked up bond with Sam! I especially love season 5 Lucifer characterization when it comes to his dynamic with Sam (the twisted care he showed, the way he was so condescending but still believed he was giving Sam what he needed, how good Sam felt when possessed even if he hated it) but later seasons Lucifer is definitely a bucket of fun too! His cruelty and enjoyment of Sam's pain was super delicious, just that possessive sadism that was so delightful—he Constantly wanted to do such terrible things to Sam and I support it. Two very different vibes of Lucifer, and both of them Excellent.
And god if the entire Nick arc in season 14 didn't give me sooooo many ideas. That dude was thoroughly fucked in the head, and I didn't get nearly enough interactions between him and Sam. How determined Sam was to help him despite how hard it was for Sam to look at him, and the actual betrayal Sam felt when Nick went dark. There was just so much damn potential there for Nick to do some fucked up shit, and I would eat up so many fics of him being able to do just that!
Azazel/Sam Winchester
Azazel was so delightfully messed up. All his quips, his smiles, his fucked up paternal actions towards Sam...Love it all. Like him saying "I'll be there in a minute, Champ! But I'm proud of you; knew you had it in you." Just love that entire vibe. He felt like it was fact that Sam was his boy, and was absolutely his favorite. Man had big plans! I'm so curious about AUs involving Azazel, like what if he actually raised Sam, or didn't die in the s2 finale, or Sam's powers developed earlier, or that scene with Azazel possessing John went differently...like I just fucking love this dude and want so much more of him.
Gadreel/Sam Winchester
These two had very few scenes between them, but the Everything Else About Them more than made up for it! I mean, come on--Sam's lack of bodily autonomy once more biting him in the ass in such a deeply violating way, having an evil angel actually riding shotgun for months without him knowing about it. Thinking he was going crazy, thinking there was something deeply wrong with him...I almost feel bad about how much I enjoyed my boy's pain 😆 With how righteous and nearly smug Gadreel acted about his actions after the fact, like he totally believed he was in the right, would've easily translated to having some more fucked up shit happening, whether that be him using Sam's possessed body for Bad Stuff or a fic after the fact between them.
Reggie Hull/Tim Janklow/Sam Winchester
If you aren't obsessed with 5x03 Free to Be You and Me then you clearly haven't watched it enough and need to go do that Immediately. Sam having hunters come after him and try to force him to drink demon blood in order to be their weapon against demons is just SO SPECTACULAR I cannot even. Like Sam is so panicked when he realizes what they're planning, and Tim and Reggie so uncaring of it. They see a monster they can use and nothing more, and I think they would've used Sam over and over again without any lick of remorse, if they'd managed to get him to drink the blood. And with Sam's addiction playing a role, well, Sam really wouldn't be in for a good time, that's for sure. (Hell, even without getting him to drink the blood, I'm sure they'd have some ideas of what to do to him...)
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THE MAGICIANS
I fell hard and fast into this fandom, like goddamn. I binged it last year and became instantly obsessed, immediately heading to AO3 to soak in all the fan content for it like a sponge. My brain is full of so much love for this show and the world they created and all the amazing characters I just ACK everyone should watch this show, I cannot recommend it highly enough. It's currently on Netflix so go binge and join me in obsession!
Honestly the characters in this show are to die for. Quentin just sparks so much joy for me, and fascinates me to no end. Like, he's the protagonist of the show, but he isn't the "chosen one", you know? Penny's the rare Traveler, Alice is the ultra powerful one, Julia is the goddess, Eliot is the High King...all of them have something super spectacular going for them, and then there's Quentin, with so much heart and passion and intelligence and just a deep love of (and belief in, as Margo says) magic. He is damaged and so not ok, a broken boy trying his best, always seeking more, wanting more and doing everything in his power to go after it. I love his fire and his dedication and his oh-so-relatable desire to be important in a world where it's so easy to be ordinary. I love his deep bonds with the people around him, how those never faded, and I appreciated so much how often he was mentioned in season 5 despite not being there. And I miss the little volunteer tomato so much 😭
Quentin Coldwater/The Monster, Quentin Coldwater/The Monster/Eliot Waugh
It took me basically .5 seconds to become obsessed with the Monster plotline. I'm always such a fan of possession stuff, and when you mix that with villain-has-an-obsession-with-the-hero, I am absolutely sold. The Monster's fixation on Quentin was so fascinating and fun to watch, the razor-wire line Quentin had to watch, and I can never get enough of them. That scene where the Monster encourages Quentin to break the planes, and Quentin starts to get really into it...lives fucking rent free in my head, my dudes. Rent free.
(I'm also down with some Queliot being thrown in the mix if you enjoy that ship! I didn't tag it because I didn't want to get solely that as the dynamics with the villains is where my id lies, but I still enjoy that ship and the Monster plotline especially gave so much excellent fodder for Queliot so I'd welcome its inclusion if you like it!)
Martin Chatwin/Quentin Coldwater
Everything with the Beast and the timeloop was super cool! I loved Martin's entire vibe, how psycho and glib he was, and the connection he had to Quentin because of the loops and Q's inability to sit things out is such a unique one. Like, a bond between a villain and a hero not because the hero is the "chosen one", but because the hero just refused to be on the sidelines no matter what—I just really love that. And Martin might've looked down on Quentin, but he also looked for him, too (like the way he said "There you are" in that "first" meeting), which is tasty as all hell.
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MARVEL 616
Ben Reilly, my dear darling blorbo. I hold him gently in my hands, I protect him from harm, I wreck him and tear him apart (you know, like you do with your favs 😌). Ben is just such a cool and damaged as hell person. He is filled with identity issues and insecurity and an almost desperate need to belong, to be a hero, to be in a position to save people. He has genius-level intelligence (being a clone of Peter Parker kind of ensures that) but his emotional state is often so unstable that that genius gets used for so many others' purposes. I love his back and forth relationships with Peter and Kaine, his fucked up bond with Miles Warren, and god honestly all the relationships he has with folks are so fun.
Ben is someone who has died more than anyone in the Marvel universe (literally—Death herself told him!) and none of those deaths were pleasant. Hell, 28 of them were him being literally tortured to death by his creator! Something I really love is that when Ben has his run as a villain in The Clone Conspiracy, his reasoning behind what he's doing is his intense terror about death; he did a lot of fucked up shit in TCC, but his reasoning was the desire to be able to stop death, to never let anyone else go through what he went through, and I just think that's Neat.
Everyone who's ever been in a position of power over Ben has abused it. Ben is someone who has clawed his way back to being a hero again and again and again every time the world fucks him over, every time he puts his trust in the wrong person and finds himself getting burned once more. Honestly it's almost like Marvel has a personal grudge against him for the sheer number of times they build him up only to knock him back down 😂 I'm laughing to hide the fact that I'm sobbing inside.
I'm sorry for the lack of pairing-specific shit here but it's because literally anything with this boy will bring me joy if you decide to write him. Literally anything <3
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THE NIGHT MANAGER
Do yourself a favor if you haven't already seen this show, and go watch it. It's on Amazon Prime, Apple TV, and Vudu, along with a couple other places to buy it, and is only 6 episodes. It is the best 6 hours you can spend, because when I tell you this show is genius, I mean it. The acting is off the charts, the characters are compelling, and the story is interesting as fuck. Who doesn't want to watch Tom Hiddleston and Hugh Laurie go head to head? No one, and if you haven't seen it, you're missing out. I have rewatched it like 5 times.
The thing that really makes the series is the dynamic between Jonathan and Roper, which is sheer perfection. I was already predisposed to like it since I like both actors, but still my breath was taken away by it. By the levels and the secrecy and betrayal and genuine affection and respect buried amongst it all. Jonathan is with Roper to avenge someone he loved, but still he found himself for falling for Roper's charms, at least a little bit. He might've hated himself for it, but it went both ways!! Roper saying "It's a rare thing, Jonathan Pine, for me to trust a person. But you were special. Knew it the first time I saw you" ripped my heart out because of how much he means it. Roper doesn't trust people, but Jonathan slid right in like he was a missing puzzle piece finally returning. Roper wanted to give everything to Jonathan, wanted him to be a goddamn emperor of Rome with him, even gave Jonathan a chance to join him for real when he knew Jonathan was betraying him!!
And nothing, nothing, will ever compare to the moment when Jonathan blew all of Roper's shit up, thoroughly destroying his empire and costing him billions of dollars, and Roper looked at him and smiled and said "Oh, you beauty." I'm sorry but, like, how can anyone stay sane after seeing that??? Jonathan destroyed everything and Roper just thought he was spectacular!!!! Even winks at him later when they're taking him away!!
If you've come for coherent thoughts about how much I enjoy the show (how brilliant and subtle the plot is, how fascinating and damaged Jonathan is, how interesting Roper's empire and his inner circle are) I'm sorry but you won't get details from me, I'm incapable of talking about anything without devolving into freaking the fuck out over the bond between Roper and Jonathan. So you'll just have to watch the show for yourself to learn how wonderful everything else is 😌
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THE FOLLOWING
What is it about the dynamic between a violent criminal and the person hunting them that has me in a chokehold? No idea, but this show gives me that in spades and I thank them for it! Holy fuck is this show a good time—so eerie, so fucked up, so well acted. I love the way they slow reveal the history between the characters and the way it impacts the now, and shit they just portray obsession so damn well. All of the characters have it, good and bad—obviously Joe's followers are obsessed with him, and Joe with Ryan, but Ryan's equally obsessed, and Mike & all the rest become that way too. They're all such complicated, fun characters and I love this show to pieces.
Joe Carroll/Ryan Hardy
This relationship! Is! Everything! These two have such gigantic divorced energy from the very first moment, which is wild to see portrayed while they're sitting across from each other in an interrogation cell 😂 As I said before these two are o b s e s s e d with each other, even if Ryan likes to pretend he's not as invested as Joe is. Watching their relationship develop over the course of the show from bitterness and self-loathing to severe attachment (and self-loathing lol) was fantastic. Ryan spending all of season 2 hunting Joe down despite everyone calling him crazy, and then oh my god can I even talk about season 3 without losing my shit? The fucked up bond between them reaches insane, amazing new heights. Ryan dreaming about them playing pool and Joe holding him and teaching him to kill I JUST CANNOT HANDLE THIS RATIONALLY. Then because apparently they didn't destroy me enough, they had to have Ryan hallucinating Joe and that is just...fuck am I ever obsessed.
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BOURNE MOVIES
I love this movie so fucking much and it is wild to me that I've only just now started requesting it for exchanges! The entire universe is awesome but I didn't click with the original trilogy in the same way I clicked with this sequel film. It is just the coolest fucking thing. Like, getting an outsider POV on the Bourne trilogy was awesome, and then you throw in the wonderful lead character of Aaron Cross and you've absolutely got me hooked.
Spies! Double crosses! Enhanced people! Manipulation! This film has it all, and all my love is attached to Aaron. This man has been manipulated and used at every single turn (by his army recruiter, by the people in charge of Outcome, by Eric Byer) because of his mental deficiency, and that's *chef's kiss* and so painful. Aaron-as-Kenny was desperate to belong, to be safe, and that was twisted and abused until he was a loyal killing machine. But the extra interesting thing to me is that Aaron still asked so many questions! He was constantly arguing—with other agents, with the doctors, with everyone. Only person he didn't argue with was Eric (but that scene we see between them really is very emotionally charged...).
Anyway, this fandom has so few fanworks, even fewer that are solely about this fandom instead of a crossover (so many crossovers with other Jeremy Renner characters, lol). I'm dying for content! I want my boy Aaron so badly, in whatever form I can take him. All the better if it's to do with his bond with Eric Byer, and all those delicious power dynamics XD
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GRISHA TRILOGY
Leigh Bardugo deserves all the praise for created such a unique and awesome world. I love how real it feels, even alongside all the magic and insane shit. Like, you can picture the geography and hear the languages and understand the command structure and all of it is so lived in, you know? It feels like Bardugo knows every single detail of the place like it's just fact, and I find that wildly impressive. (A small note that I really love the use of the Ravkan language in the books, so you get extra points for any inclusion of that!)
In the series, my main man is definitely Nikolai. I am So Here for the charming swashbuckler hiding a sharp, serious mind, the general who locks his emotions away to do his job but still cares so deeply for everyone around him. He takes so much on his shoulders readily, facing each and every challenge that comes his way with a brazen grin and ready plan and a refusal to let anyone see him sweat. Which isn't to say he doesn't sweat; for all his confidence, the boy for sure has a well of issues, and never has the time or the space to really explore them. I love his dedication to his people, his practical standpoint on matters of state (even if it goes against what he may personally want). I love how he describes himself as "a solider for whom the war would never be over" and "a bastard left alone in the woods." His position has him so isolated, and there's nothing he can do about it, no matter how badly he wishes he could.
The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova/Nikolai Lantsov
God I really wish we'd gotten to see more of Nikolai with the Darkling. There is just so much untapped potential here, and so much fucked up shit that it can't be anything but exciting. Like, it's canon that Nikolai and Aleksander knew each other before Nikolai left Ravka, so my question is how well did they know each other? What were Aleksander's thoughts on the second prince, the maybe-bastard? Did anything fucky ever happen between them? Did Aleksander ever try to manipulate him as an attempt to get an extra advantage over the royal family? And that's not even getting into the stuff between them during canon! Like, god, you could've cut the murderous, plotting tension with a knife. And Aleksander corrupting Nikolai??? Goddamn. Anything for these two would bring me a lot of joy!
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DCU COMICS
Dick Grayson is probably my biggest/longest lasting hyperfixation, hence why he gets two requests so I could use many many freeforms 😆 I don't really have much to say about this, I just want bad things to happen to Dick Grayson, whether at the hands of his enemies or his allies. Go ham, live your best life. I love all these tags split between my two requests, they'd all be such an absolute blast to see come to life. Get as angsty or whumpy or fucked up as you like!
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I want to thank you for reading my Letter, and I hope you have a good time writing! I'm so looking forward to whatever you lovely folks come up with :) <3
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